Can I be honest?
I’ve realized I have a problem.
I’ve forgotten…
I forgot how much I wanted to be a mommy. I dreamed of loving and rocking them to sleep in my arms before I knew my babies.
I forgot that there was a time I prayed every night for my future husband. I wanted to stroke his hair until he fell asleep next to me. At that time it seemed so far away.
It’s so easy to get caught up in the day to day life and forget that you are surrounded by the people you used to long for. That this nutball family was THE goal at one point!
And now they are mine.
And God thank you for making them way cooler than I expected
This year even when the dog is barking as my daughter is trying to climb the wall and the baby is screaming while my husband is watching TV because he’s exhausted from work when I’m cooking dinner like a maniac…
I’m going to smile and be grateful because I really would miss them if my house wasn’t this beautiful chaos. 
