Healing is not perfection.
It’s the ability to understand yourself and peacefully live a confident life you are proud of even when things fall apart, or when you are reminded of your past wounds and triggers.
Many years ago I was an insomniac.
It’s how I functioned from middle school all the way into my early twenties.
When young I hated it. I would stare into the dark, tossing and turning… waiting for sleep to come. I would read until dawn to sooth my restless spirit. Eventually I learned the screams of rock music was one of the few things that could calm my mind.
By adulthood, I embraced it as part of who I was. I would spend nights out with friends, then would come home to read or paint or run or binge shows.
When life settled down and I decided I wanted to sleep instead of avoid it, night terrors haunted me.
I would wake up screaming or shaking with fear.
I tried So many things…
Even sleeping pills didn’t help.
This went on for years.
But then I did Inner child healing, and after one round, it all stopped.
It was the first time I experienced peace at night.
No repeated wake-ups, no staring into the night, no night terrors.
It was amazing. Miraculous. Life changing.
Fast forward to this year.
We moved to a new state.
The shift activated something inside me.
And for the first entire month, I could barely sleep to the point it was making my days difficult.
And I was annoyed at my body because I thought I had overcome this! What was happening to me?
Yet I didn’t address it because I had more pressing issues to get situated during the day.
My husband sat me down for an intervention.
He prayed over me and back to the basics of Inner Chold Helaing I went.
In less than a week I was sleeping peacefully again.
And this is how it goes.
Healing is constantly showing up with grace,
not expectations of perfection.
So keep going even when you feel like your reverting, don’t play the loosing victim. Be the victor who keeps fighting and refuses to accept defeat. Go back to your basics, reset, and continue.
Love,
A very well rested bed-headed woman
